Something Beautiful

Books at the moment

2012-01-30T15:46:00.000-06:00

My daughter is home sick again so I decided to enjoy some words as a treat. Well, ok I read every day but I’m enjoying it on the comfy couch with a grandma-ish throw of the browns, mint green and bright pink colors. I found it thrifting a few weeks ago.

I just downloaded Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can't Stop Talking. I’ve read a few pages and already feel like I can breathe again. It’s been hard for me when I’m expected to be a certain way, possessing extrovert qualities I just don’t own. I own shyness, quiet, and tender. These are parts of me I can’t change and I shouldn’t want to change them. They are gifts. Loud, outgoing, and hard are not part of me. Neither set of traits are bad or wrong. I just need to learn how to embrace and use the parts of me in a positive way.

So I will breathe away today.

Jesus Calling, I already talked about but, it’s helping me abide. I chose abide as my word for the year because after learning to Trust I didn’t want to lose the lessons of Trust. I didn’t want to go back to normal living and not carry on with all that I’ve learned. I want to hold tightly to It. It’s really helping me take my thoughts captive and focus on Jesus and who He is. He walks among us and this book is helping me focus on this.

We were surprised this Christmas by relatives we haven’t seen in years, some of them we’ve never met. My cousin wrote Four Bears: The Myths of Forgiveness. Saying he’s lived a hard life is an understatement. He lived a gangster life style, as in real gangster life. It’s helped me realize once again troubled people are their hurts acting (crying) out for help. He has since changed his life around and is doing amazing things. He has passion for lost people and his life now is all about helping them. I love that part. And in case you decided to read this and your mind starts to wonder, his real dad is my uncle who I don’t remember too much. He died when I was really young.

Moving on, my community group has decided to do a studying on marriage. Dream Team is the chosen book just in time for love month and our anniversary.

My future read is going to be Erasing Hell: We can’t afford to get it wrong. I love the way Francis Chan thinks when he is reading the bible. I included the video in case you want to watch it.

Hope your day is warm and comfy!

In 2012...

2012-01-03T17:32:00.000-06:00

So with the new year everyone talks about their one word for the year approaching. I use to not like to make resolutions because I couldn't keep the goals up in the new year. I think I made too many at once. I do however like the idea of one word for the new year. It helps me focus on how I want to grow as a person over the year. My one word for 2012 is abide. Because I learned to trust God like never before in 2011, I want to put my quiet time with God first everyday in 2012.

A friend gave me Jesus Calling a couple of months ago. I'm thinking someone initially gave her the book and then she gave it to me. I didn't mind though because I knew what a treasure the book would be for me. I decided to get a jump start beginning December 1st and I'm glad I did! I absolutely love the daily devotions, so good! A while back I gave the Jesus Calling for Kids to my daughter for her devotional and I can tell she enjoys it as much as I do. She went in her room shut the door and I could hear her reading the devotional this morning, so sweet :)

What's your word for 2012?

Tuesday Unwrapped -- A Reflection

2011-12-20T17:14:00.000-06:00

As I look around the house I see glimmer on the tree. Closer I notice it's our new ornament for this year. A sliver sparkly heart. I searched the store for just the right one, meaningful for our year. Would I be able to capture our year in one single ornament? My eyes scanned the rows of shimmer and color. I reached the end and looked up to see this heart dangle above me as if to say, here I am search no more.

And so it sits hung on our tree and I'm forced to reflect of what was behind and what's before me. Literally my husband's heart comes to mind. When you are closely bound to another their experiences intertwines with yours at times. And you feel changed and new too. And then I'm struck of a deeper reflection one I know was the purpose of the glimmer from the start. The heart it's mine and ours. He has hunkered down there, stretched and said I'm here to stay. He tells me I will never leave you but instead I will lead you. I'm washed with peace and joy.

A brief flash of statement, you’re too into Jesus. And I think is there any other way? He is Redeemer, Savior, Grace, and Wonderful Counselor. He is why we landed face up. I'd rather be too into Jesus than to live life lukewarm. Deny His love, no way.

He's made His impression in our hearts and claimed them as His own. There's no turning back. Life going forward, I'm free to me and healed beyond belief. A Jesus freak if you will. Closer. I smile to myself because life is good.

(For more on Tuesday Unwrapped click here.)

Hodge Podgy Christmas

2011-12-16T15:52:00.001-06:00

A couple of weeks ago my daughter was sick which turned out kind of nice because we were able to slow down. I finished my Christmas decorating and even had the chance to make a wreath with the sick girl.

She was able to peel and stick the Christmas bows right onto the wreath. They did start to come off though and I decided to pin them in place which worked out nicely.

My husband said he liked it better than the one on the front door. What?!

We hung it on her bedroom door for fun.

And, I joined the yarn wreath ban wagon and like it! I was able to use the same wreath for Thanksgiving and Christmas. I pinned felt roses I made out of fall colors and switched the roses for sparkly poinsettias for Christmas. I'm frugal like that :)

The one thing I noticed about my Christmas decorating is nothing matches at all and I like it! I would have never chosen the stockings we have this year. Our past stockings were a bit scorched by the fire last year so I let my daughter choose the stocking she wanted and well, she chose a giraffe stocking (her favorite animal). The pickings were slim and I just went with it and selected some elf stockings to go along with hers.

Night picture before I hung the wreath over the fireplace.

I like them even though it's mismatched and random. The imperfection feels like home to me.

Guess who decorated all by herself? Maybe random will feel like home to her too.

I have this poster hanging all year round but really isn't this what Christmas is all about? It helps me extend the season.

She is home sick again but it looks more like this

with puke bowl in tow.

Hopefully she will feel better for all the Christmas activities starting this weekend through next week!

For other Christmas house tours click here and here

Merry Christmas!

Embrace the Camera - Christmas Style

2011-12-15T16:27:00.001-06:00

I'm doing another embrace the camera because Emily's words spoke to me today :)

And because I happen to have pictures of ourselves, double chin and all.

I have clear normal pictures but I like this one the best because were are all laughing. To read Emily's words click here.

Little Favorites

2011-12-01T18:05:00.001-06:00

I decided to join Nester's linky party sharing all my favorite things because why not. We all have our little favorites, right?

I have to admit I've been coveting my hair brush. It's true and I don't want to remember life before the hair brush.

This brush has been such a time saver for me and it has protected my hair against dryness. This brush is ceramic coated which means it straightens your hair while you dry it. Since the brush is round you curl your hair as well. Run and don't walk to buy this brush if you have thick unruly hair! It's called Ceramic + Ion Thermal Brush by Olivia Garden

Next up is the Sweet Cinnamon Pumpkin scented soap from Bath & Body Works. I know it's now December but I'm still loving this scent. I go into my daughter's bathroom just to wash my hands. Love it!

And last but definitely not least...this book is amazing!

I only share books on here that I'm passionate about and this one is on the top of the list with out a doubt! I've been wanting to share it but couldn't find the words to do so. I wanted to read this book but hesitated for a while because I thought well, I'm really not a good girl so this book isn't for me until I read this blog post and I just knew I needed to read this book. I'm the good girl #2. Growing up not going to church as a little girl I didn't have Jesus in my life until I was 25. Living a completely worldly life and stepping into the Christian life was tough...is tough. I began to strive and want to perform. I wanted to be perfect. I wanted to fit in with all the other 'good Christian women'. What would they think of me and my worldly past...gasp! I've been rejected by a few. I have good girls around me where I don't live up to up to their expectations. I tried. Then came Grace for the Good Girl and Peace settled into my soul. I am me. No excuses and no explanations needed. This is my favorite quote from the book,

Grace is not Jesus helping you live up to the law. This keeps us focused on the law. Jesus came to fulfill the law so we don't have to look at it anymore. I no more listen to what the law is saying, I listen to what Jesus is saying. - Dudley Hall

To learn more about the book click here.

Awesome!

2011-10-25T18:04:00.000-05:00

I first saw this here and had to share.

Found It

2011-09-23T09:00:00.001-05:00

It's been one of those weeks where things just mesh together for you. A friend on facebook one day had this status 'Don't tell your problems to anyone because 80% won't care and 20% are glad it's happening to you.' Now, don't get me wrong this statement is very negative and I would normally not like it on facebook but, I did. It's confession time...don't judge ;)

But, God is good and He always turns things around for me. I know I post things that may sound a little down but, I don't walk around in the dumps everyday...I just have my moments. And, through those dumpy, messy times I draw closer to Jesus. He always brings me to a place of peace, hope, and utter goodness!

This week I ran across two post that are life shaking. Life shaking, peeps. When you have the time these are really great reads! They tie into the facebook statement above...really good...keeps you thinking.

The first one is from Melody Ross and the post is called We Must See Past What It Seems.

(picture from Brave Girls Club)

You've probably heard of her. She and her sister started the Brave Girls Club. Her story might just rock your little world! I've been getting the Daily Truth recently and it's like they have a peep hole into my life. I decided to take their Soul Restoration 2 class. It's starting next week and I'm really excited!

The second one I found via Flowerpatch Farmgirl. Let me just say Shannon's blog is a life shaking read anyway. Love that she shares her life with the world! Anyhoo, here is the life shaking post I was talking about. It's called A Call To Action.

Have a great weekend!

I love You too

2011-09-17T07:03:00.001-05:00

On the quest of discovering my beauty full life I ended up finding God’s love for me. I always knew it was there but what I didn’t know was the intensity of His love for us.

I remember a time when I lived alone but didn’t feel alone. I had this indescribable Peace within me. I remember when I would drive home in the evenings, the scene was beautiful. Twinkling lights all looking back on the town. The gorgeous sunsets couldn’t be missed. I loved the morning air and being on my own. Loneliness wasn’t to be found. It didn’t really cross my mind. I was content.

I’ve always loved the sky. Sunrises, colors ever changing, blue with clouds brings a smile anytime. I knew He made them for me, for you. But, a few weeks ago I spied Beth Moore’s audio devotions while checking out for only $2 and thought this would be nice to listen to on the drive to work. On day #6 this is what I heard. You really have to listen to her story or parts of this post just doesn’t make much sense and I know I wouldn’t do her story any justice. If you click on the link & then click on 6 - Love comes from God, you can hear the devotion.

It’s something we may all know but it awakened my insides. I realized a deeper Love when I needed it the most. He talks to me, to you. Are you listening?

I’m learning about His breath-taking love. It’s overwhelming in a good way. It’s amazing and jaw dropping. It refreshes my soul. It’s lovely and gentle and fierce and strong. It moves me if I dare.

He loves me today in the hue of orange in the breeze of day. He loves me in a stranger’s compliment after I balled my eyes out and beauty full I was not. He loves me with the ease of conversation with some sweet ladies. He loves me today with kisses and hugs. He loves me with change if I take Him up on it. He loves me today by making Himself known.

These days I can be surrounded with people but still feel alone. Things have been stripped away one by one. Have you ever felt you had nothing left, a little exposed and all you could do was cling to Him? I hear Him saying I’m all you need. My love you cannot find in anyone else. Don’t you see? Why are you searching as if I’m not enough?

I’m right where I’m supposed to be, learning to rely solely on Him. This is where He wants me to be. It’s comforting and painful in one big gulp.

till those places are healed

I love You too

I love to see He was preparing my heart in advance for what was to come.

Turns out my search is over. He is all I need.

I pray that out of His glorious riches He may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge--that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. Ephesians 3:16-19

Also linked up with Heart to Heart with Holley.

Hair Brush

2011-09-02T06:02:00.001-05:00

I was trying to write another post for Brag on God Friday, but couldn't finish the post.

In doing so I ran across this video. Hysterical! It had me rolling and tearful. Obviously Beth Moore has a way with words and you got to love her stories. This one had me thinking, wouldn't you love to be moved in such a way? I probably hear the Whisper but I'm positive I've chalked it up to craziness.

This video is well worth 8.25 minutes of your day...Happy Friday!

Surrender

2011-08-26T16:45:00.000-05:00

(Just some thoughts and random pics from the weekend)

When I was involved in a step study group a question was asked a few times during the lessons.

What are you still holding onto that you have not surrendered to God?

Well the last time this question was ask in the study, I thought about something I needed to surrender. The blue chip immediately popped in my mind. My reaction was to dismiss the idea. I thought

‘Oh, I don’t need a blue chip to surrender this to God. I can do it on my own.’

Now don’t get me wrong, I do believe you can surrender to God when you talk to Him when and where ever the need strikes your fancy.

I think for me I really just didn’t want to get up and walk down the aisle in front of everyone and admit I’m weak. Think of it as an alter call of sorts. I mean I’m a Christian for heaven sakes. I know I need God and He can help me through this and goodness I might appear like I don’t have it all together.

However, the next thing that came to mind was what I learned when I decided to get baptized. You see I discovered what being baptized meant to me. It wasn’t about my salvation because I believe once you ask God for forgiveness of your sins and ask Jesus into your heart & life and believe He died on the cross for you, your sins – you.are.saved. (Romans 10:9)

It was more about my love for Him and what He has done in my life.

It was about telling the world I am His and I will follow His ways.

It was about being obedient because He asked me to do it.

So, I started to look at the blue chip in the same way. It was a symbol of how serious I was to lay this at His feet. It was about how I needed to step aside and allow Him to take over. I realized…

I.am.weak.

And I’m in need of a King.

I’m in need of a Savior.

I’m in need of a Redeemer.

I’m in need of a Healer and Comforter.

I’m in need of His mercy and grace daily.

Weak.

I can’t do this on my own. I need His strength, courage, and love to take over me. My focus started to shift. It no longer was about me and everyone else in the room.

It was about me and Him.

I stood up and walked down the aisle for a blue chip but, received so much more.

A changed life.

I've linking up to Brag on God Friday's over at Beholding Glory.

1st

2011-08-20T08:51:00.000-05:00

The first day of school was Wednesday. Abby picked out her clothes from head to toe. If it were up to me she would have ruffles.

I cut her toes in all of the pics...need to work on ;)

It's funny because apparently we have two different styles....me and her.

She tells me I'm "too stylish and fashionable." I then ask her if she wants to be stylish and she said "no, not really."

She's more about casual and comfort these days. I'm surprised she choose the headband with the biggest bow. She usually doesn't wear this one because it's sooo big. I like it but, now realize how big it looks on her. It's kind of cracking me up...do you remember the big bows when we were younger? Now, it's flowers ;)

She wanted me to take a picture of the 'nerdy' girl on her bag.

She also had her first day of soccer practice on her new team. The skies on our over to the field.

Beautiful.

The coach is super nice. I hope she has a fun year!

Weekend

2011-08-15T16:09:00.000-05:00

too bad there are power lines all around us...

but the rainbow sure is pretty!

not our house ;) Love that face!

"For great is Your love, higher than the heavens; Your faithfulness reaches to the skies."
Psalms 108:4

Pockets Full Of Gold

2011-08-03T20:09:00.003-05:00

At work I constantly see people, all sorts of people walking down the sidewalks. Today I was thinking how each of us holds our own pocket full of gold, the sweets for our souls. Can you look back on your life and say, it’s been tough but…

Look how far I’ve come

I’ve grown and matured

I’ve learned some great things

I have a new outlook on life

Change is good

Those are your shimmering reflective chunks of gold goodness. Have you reached that place – freeing, peace-filled, joyful place.

Sparkling light seeping out. There’s no keeping it in. We would be silly not to share this Goodness.

We all have a story, a path paved for us.

We've collected healing rocks, encouragement stones, and wisdom pebbles.

All ready to be tossed in the creek. Ready to make endless ripples in the water.

Could be refreshing to those nearby.

Do you believe everyone has something to offer? Perhaps you’ve been a gold snob, thinking only you or certain elite peeps could extend the goods. (I could be guilty as charged.)

How things would change is openness, honesty, and acceptance took the lead.

Up for the offering, my words of wisdom for the day

Take everything to God. Allow Him to decipher which gold is for keeps and which gold is not for the taking.

p.s. We all know He doesn't have to decipher, He just clues us in. ;)

"We loved you so much that we were delighted to share with you not only the gospel of God but our lives as well, because you had become so dear to us." 1Thessalonians 2:8

Firefly Fling

2011-07-26T21:13:00.001-05:00

It's been awhile...and all I have to say is...beauty can be all over the place ;)

It's what you make of it....right?

We headed over to her favorite spot for the Firefly Fling.

They have lots of activity for the kiddos which change every year. This year you got to cook bread with the NWACC Culinary peeps.

They had an after dark show...shadow puppet play...Abby's favorite of the night, fire people, and of course the launching of the lanterns. My pics didn't turn out on those...bummer!

blurry goodness!

What? I have no idea!

And, the reason I don't have a lot of pics of myself....

there's always some 'enhancement' going on!

Weekend Peeks

2011-07-05T23:01:00.000-05:00

Sing-a-long

2011-06-30T08:05:00.000-05:00

Let's have a sing-a-long.....

shall we.....

don't tell anyone I was listening to a teeny bopper song ;)

Terrarium Mania

2011-06-27T21:59:00.000-05:00

Last Saturday we decide to try our hands at a little project.

Terrariums

We found our inspiration at Centsational Girl

and over at Quiet Like Horses.

Easy peasy goodness!

Fill In The Blank

2011-06-21T21:51:00.000-05:00

Have you ever tried reading the bible as if it were written for you? You know...putting your name in the verses...like God is talking directly to you.

Take these verses for instance.

Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior. Isaiah 43:1-3
If I read it as if He were talking to me here's what it would look like.

Fear not, for I have redeemed you, Kristina; I have summoned you, Kristina, by name; Kristina, you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you Kristina; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, Kristina, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord, Kristina's God, the Holy One of Israel, Kristina, your Savior.

Does it take on new meaning for you? We're allowed to do that you know. The bible is God's words to you.

Make it personal :)

Fathers

2011-06-19T12:57:00.000-05:00

I'm thankful my dad continues to seek a relationship with me.

I'm thankful my husband intentionally engages with our daughter to build a relationship with her. I'm thankful he puts up my shenanigans. ;)

Happy Father's Day.

Grab a tissue!

Small Moments

2011-06-10T22:34:00.000-05:00

Summer Has Arrived

2011-06-09T22:37:00.000-05:00

Graduation

2011-06-08T09:03:00.000-05:00

So this is a little late. We attended the kindergarten graduation a few weeks ago.

It was the cutest thing evah!

I think they were a bit surprised by all the parents and family in the audience ;)

You could tell they worked hard on several songs which included motions.

The motions sealed the deal.

Star of the show....so darn cute!

Props to the music teacher.

My little one had a speaking part. I knew when her part was coming up.

She took a deep breathe and walked to the mic.

She did it!

Great job...clear, loud words

so proud!

Morning Goodness

2011-06-01T05:45:00.000-05:00

"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or discouraged because of the king of Assyria and the vast army with him, for there is a greater power with us than with him. With him is only the arm of flesh, but with us is the Lord our God to help us and to fight our battles." 2 Chronicles 32:7-8

Do It Anyway

2011-05-30T04:34:00.000-05:00

I wouldn't consider myself a country fan. I do like some country music but, I wouldn't say this is my genera of choice. I'm not sure what my genera of choice is anyway...maybe it is country ;)

This morning I just can't shake this song Do It Anyway by Martina McBride. On my mind....on.my.mind.

Sometimes I feel broken down. Crushed a little. I fight my flesh. My thoughts.

Who cares, really? I'm hurt, why should I? I don't understand? Is this making a difference? I feel misunderstood. I don't want to...it's too hard.

But, I've been given a new spirit.

I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you. Ezekiel 36:26

I've learned new ways.

I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my loving eye on you. Psalms 32:8

He is guiding my steps.

Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, This is the way; walk in it. Isaiah 30:21

And I do it anyway.

Rest

2011-05-29T16:35:00.000-05:00

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Matthew 11:28-30

Friday

2011-05-28T08:08:00.000-05:00

Getting to leave work early never gets old!

Favorites

2011-05-26T21:13:00.000-05:00

Just a few of my favorite things.

We had a bloom! One. bloom. But, they are my favorite flower...peony...love them!

These are my mother-n-laws'. They of course spill over. All over the place! Not the best pic of them. I waited too late. They look a little wilty. Still beautiful in my opinion.

You knew this was coming. I might be a bit partial but, she is a cutie!

Crazy hand and all ;)

The lighting is horrible in this picture. This is my calendar in my office at work. I had a smile on my face everyday in April. Love this quote! The calendar name had me at intentional. And btw, I've heard some rumors that living intentionally is getting a bad rap. Now, to me living intentionally doesn't mean everything is going to turn out as you have planned. Nope.

Intentional = living with a purpose

Have you found yours?

Gotta love the sun! Especially after what feels like non-stop rain, flooding, and tornadoes.

Summer-ish nights roasting marshmallows. Yummers!

Oh, and it's been a struggle for me to post everyday like I had hoped. I'm working on it! But, some days I just need rest and time with family.

The clouds are parting

2011-05-09T08:57:00.001-05:00

I know it's been raining on us for a while but, geez I'm ready for the clouds to part.

I found out last week I will be losing my job soon.

They are centralizing accounting to Chicago and well that leaves me jobless.

I have to admit though I didn't feel sad in the least bit when I was told.

Nope. A little relieved....kind of like the horse above scratching his chin on the fence.

(if a horse has a chin?)

Going back to work, I knew pretty early on that life wasn't me anymore.

I couldn't hang with the ladder climbers and water cooler gossip.

It wasn't me anymore.

I've changed and I'm ok with that.

I finally realized I was made to be creative in what I do.

There are times when I'm giddy with excitement of all the new possibilities.

Smiling and happy because God hears me and it's warm and fuzzy.

and other times when the fears of the unknown are present.

I know the outcome will be good whatever it is because

He is creating a masterpiece after all ;)

"For we are God's masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus,

so we can do the good things He planned for us long ago." Ephesians 2:10

Walk

2011-05-02T06:07:00.004-05:00

struggling as a new mom

yes Lord, draw me closer

husband's health issues

yes Lord, draw me closer

turning to food for comfort

yes Lord, draw me closer

issues at work

yes Lord, draw me closer

He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the Lord require
of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with you God.
Micah 6:8

I'm humbly walking this path enjoying the blooms God has set out before me.

Stretching out my hand

Reaching

Holding on tight

On The Way

2011-04-27T22:28:00.000-05:00

"So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Corinthians 4:18

Easter Goodness

2011-04-25T21:40:00.000-05:00

Clearly I need to work on focusing!

Crazy Love

2011-04-22T22:23:00.000-05:00

He who was without sin would die for me...

you

for all of our sins.

Jesus has crazy love for us.

All He ask from us

is to come to Him.

Ask for forgiveness

and acknowledge Him.

Do you see His crazy love for you?

Good Friday indeed!

Good Reads

2011-04-20T21:41:00.000-05:00

It's the feeling I get when I see a magazine in my mailbox.

Pure excitement!

I adore reading her journals from school!

I love that Peace is saying Ouch because she is squeezing him so tight.

I heart them...treasure them....sigh!

Glimpse

2011-04-18T22:04:00.000-05:00

A glimpse of my Friday.

(dirty mirror)

(running from the camera)

Hang-ups

2011-04-17T21:59:00.006-05:00

When he came near the place where the road goes down the Mount of Olives, the whole crowd of disciples began joyfully to praise God in loud voices for all the miracles they had seen: "Blessed is the king who comes in the name of the Lord! Peace in heaven and glory in the highest!" Some of the Pharisees in the crowd said to Jesus, "Teacher, rebuke your disciples!" "I tell you," he (Jesus) replied, "if they keep quiet, the stones will cry out."
Luke 19:37-40

Have you ever praised God without holding back? You know really praise Him, with heart abandoned, hands held high, no matter what it looks like on the outside?

I'm more on the reserved side. The I-don't-want-to-look-like-a-fool side. There are times I want to be that girl. The girls who is in the moment, no holding back. The girl who knows giving praise to Him is all that matters.

And, I know what you're thinking. What if I'm talking about something greater? Something more along the lines of allowing what God has placed in your heart

to emerge,

to be seen,

to be heard,

The sweet spot of you soul.

No hang-ups,

just you, Him, and the world.

Almost Friday

2011-04-14T22:56:00.000-05:00

My Thursday summed up....

I'm looking forward to tomorrow.

I'm not saying it was a horrible day...just happy for the weekend! We watered the garden even though it's going to pour tonight. We're crazy like that :)

She was so excited to see her watermelon seed sprouting!

And, we both need our nails painted.

Extra tidbit for ya ;)

Set In Motion

2011-04-13T23:15:00.000-05:00

So today I decided to try my hand at learning shutter speed on my camera.

Quickly realizing I have no idea what I'm doing.

My plan was to take pictures of my daughter playing outside. Only to remember we had other things on the agenda for the evening. By the time we made it outside the sun was setting.

I changed my shutter speed but my pictures all turned out dark!

I'm guessing it wasn't a good idea to start with the second lessons after all.

Jessica did say the aperture (first lesson), shutter speed, and ISO all go hand and hand.

I will go back and tinker with the aperture a bit and go from there. All of the pictures on this post were done on the action setting on my camera; 1/200 sec (I believe).

So I asked her to jump for me and this is what I got

Silly girl!

I was even lucky enough to capture the robot :)

"I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. And I will put my Spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws." Ezekiel 36:26-27

A Beauty Full Life

2011-04-12T23:13:00.000-05:00

This post from Flower patch Farmgirl captured my heart a while back and I couldn't shake it, nor did I want to.

Life is beauty full!

Do I notice it in the everyday?

Is my face turned toward life's beauty?

I'm on a quest of discovering my beauty full life.

I've decided to jot down my findings daily right here on this little blog of mine.

It may be a few words here and there with a splash of pictures. I recently got a new camera to really take hold of those beauty full moments. I ran across this post on Shabby Blogs today. Jessica is teaching photography techniques. She started with some basic skills and defined the Greek word photography as writing with light. Love that!

Some days may be writing with light only. We shall see. I’m throwing caution to the wind and just going with it. It’s scary and fun all swirled together.

I’m going to follow Jessica’s photography lessons and share my discoveries with you. I missed the first lesson. She is teaching on shutter speed right now. The goal is to have my pic for shutter speed tomorrow and go back to the first lesson, not tomorrow but another day :)

Are you seeing the beauty full life around you?

“One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek Him in his temple.” Psalms 27:4

Crunching

2011-04-02T16:16:00.000-05:00

Good.

Made to Crave by Lysa Terkeurst

So good...I'm loving it!

I didn't realize how much power I was giving to food.

Reclaiming it...thank you very much!

I was reading chapter 10 and a visual popped in my brain.

I saw myself sitting at my desk

eating

of course

and God was sitting next to me.

Silent.

Watching me.

Why is He not saying anything to me? I need some words of wisdom

right now.

And then I thought maybe my crunching is so loud I can't hear Him ;)

Anyhoo, just a thought!

How often is my 'crunching' so loud I'm distracted by it. I turn away from the One thing I need the most?

Have you been 'crunching' lately?

"My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness." 2 Corinthians 12:9

Overflowing

2011-03-01T22:53:00.001-06:00

My heart has felt an overflowing, filled to the tippy-top rim with Joy.

I can’t explain it.

It could have started the first day my daughter decided to tell me to ‘have a great day at work’ as she kissed my cheek before she rushed out the door for school.

It could be because she decided to do this each and every morning. Moments I treasure.

I wish I could scoop them up and tuck them in my pocket to be pulled out when my heart searches for that extra love.

(I know I look goofy in this picture!)

It might have something to do with me and my husband being able to get away for the weekend. A much needed get-a-way to celebrate 7 years of marriage.

(my dog chewed these shoes up! RIP green favorite shoes, RIP)

Maybe it’s because today was a smile to myself kind of day. A sun kissed, wind in my hair, freeing, spring in my step kind of day.

I’ve decided on Made To Crave and it could be from my heart turning flips because I’m spending time with my Heavenly Father and I couldn’t be happier.

Whatever it is I hope it’s here to stay. I hope it wears its welcome out. I hope it leaves an impression so deep I can’t live without it. So deep I’ll do all I must to keep Joy’s presence in mine.

"Draw near to God and He will draw near to you." James 4:8

Crave

2011-02-16T03:02:00.000-06:00

I've been in search of a good devotion and/or bible study for a while now. I've seen this book, Made To Crave by Lysa Terkeurst, around bloggy land recently. I ran across this cute video for the book.

It made me want a bag of jelly belly beans and got me thinking. I believe you can be any size and struggle with food issues. I know I do! Sweets in particular...they are me soft spot...my weakness...they get me every time. Valentine's Day candy 50% off, ugh!

Honestly, I got a sample of this book on ibooks and I'm left wanting more. And really if food is not an issue for you, you can substitute the word food with whatever it is you do struggle with.

If you think you don't have issues...

from me to you....

in the most loving way possible.....

don't kid yourself!

If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. 1 John 1:8

Then I heard a lot of buzz about this book, One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp. I decided to get a sample copy on ibooks as well. I cried on the second page, the.second.page.y'all. This looks like a good read as well! Over at (in)courage via Bloom, they are doing a study on this book if you want to join in on the fun.

If you know of a good devotion/bible study, please don't hesitate to share!

Anyone?

Someone...

My Heart Needed

2011-02-09T17:31:00.000-06:00

to be reminded of true

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. 1Corinthians 13:4-8

I read Sandy's post, Love is, on her blog the Reluctant Entertainer and was refreshed by her reminder of what true love is....(quoted from her post)

It (this verse) reminds me that true love gives itself freely as a gift, not as a bribe for something in return. It doesn’t bargain or manipulate or seek to control. It protects, trusts, and hopes. -Sandy Coughlin

I've kissed those days good-bye....and I meant it!

mmmmmmwwwaa!

I hope you're having a true love filled day :)

p.s. Sandy is having a giveaway on her blog...stop by!

Birthday Wish List

2011-02-03T19:08:00.000-06:00

This is a little late, but I thought it was cute. My daughter's wish list for her 6th birthday:

Ken barbie doll
A baby sister
More snow everyday (She got what she wished for!)
Summer to come tomorrow
IPad
New pink shoes
Pink dress
bendaroos
Another dog
Build-a-bear

Day Off Musings and Bloggy Love

2011-01-17T20:12:00.000-06:00

God knows exactly what I need when I need it the most! I heard this new song on the radio today called This Is The Stuff by Francesca Battistelli.

It describes my day to a capital T...week...actually! This weekend revolved around these verses...Mark 9:35...James 4:10...and 1 Peter 5:6. I've decided humble pie is sweet.

Today we started our day at 5:30 am...I don't have the luxury of sleeping in...EVER...one day I'll get to sleep in...by then she will be a teenager and I'll need all the sleep I can get ;)

It was a girls' day

we went to lunch and the mall

came home and made play dough

I would be lying if I said it was absolutely perfect...that we held hands and skipped while there was beautiful background music following us around all day.

Our day was sprinkled with boundary testing and bickering...ya know...normal stuff.

and then she started acting ca...razy with picture taking

But the day ended just right...I won this giveaway over at The Cottage Nest. She was giving away a beautiful (do I say beautiful a lot?) poster from Jolly Goode. You know how I like to surround myself with all things positive...well, I've decided the Give It All Away poster is my favorite. It will remind me to take the focus off myself and 'my stuff' and give attention to others around me. The funny thing was...on the way home I decided I was going to buy this poster...and I came home and read Jen's email telling me I won. Way cool! You should check out the Jolly Goode shop...her proceeds from these posters goes toward their adoption. I love to help mamas out!

I wanted to spread the love today. I ran across a couple of post I liked this week and thought I would share them with you.

Less than a Christian wife from Like A Warm Cup Of Coffee - I love what Sarah Mae talks about here and it is so beautifully written.

Getting organized around the house has been on my mind lately...A LOT! I love the pictures from The Inspired Room. Her post The Small House: Making the Most of Your Space isn't necessarily on getting organized but I love looking at the pictures.

I hope you enjoyed your day!

Hubby Update

2011-01-08T09:24:00.000-06:00

I wanted to give you all a quick update on hubby. He's doing very well these days. He has some memory issues, but who doesn't? (It seems like I have no memory most of the time...I chalked that up to 'mom brain' his is at least legit!)

His blood sugar level is so good the doctor is talking about taking him off medication for diabetes. He, of course, still takes blood thinner. There is a new blood thinner medication that has come out recently. The doc wants us to go see a hematologist to discuss if this medication would be wise to use for hubby's condition. Great! I'm sooo looking forward to this visit. So many questions on my mind...can't wait to have them answered!

He has what I like to call a 'one track mind'. If he has something on his mind...that's what is on his mind and nothing else. He is a little more irritable than he use to be, a bit moody if you will. A lot of adjustments going on in our household, but isn't that what growing is all about...

Learning

Accepting

Loving

Changing

"Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." James 1:4

Being Content

2010-12-17T07:23:00.000-06:00

As I walk the town these days, I'm surrounded by this,

this,

and more of this.

I hear God whisper, nudge a little...

"For I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through Him who gives me strength." Philippians 4:11-13

Well, maybe it's more like a push....whatev.....I get the message.

I always thought it would be much easier to live in "plenty." And, y'all living in plenty for me is having the bills paid and food on the table! When the stress of those things are gone, are you still content? It seems the more I see the more I want...not need...just...nice to have...are you following me?

So He tugs at my heart a little more and the season takes on His light once again.

I'm reminded to fill my heart with more of Him and what He is about....

Peace

Love

Hope

Joy

What are you filling your heart with this Christmas season?

Accepting Change

2010-11-07T19:26:00.000-06:00

Lately, when I’m asked to tell someone about myself, a number of things run through my mind.

Well, I’m a daughter of God, wife to hubby of six years, mom to one outspoken, and strong little girl. I’m not sure where she gets this trait, neither one of us is out spoken, but God sees us as fit parents for her. This makes me smile. When she is defending her case, not so much. ;) I’m a former stay-at-home mom, pillow maker, one who loves creativity. And, I’m a christian woman who is blooming through life experiences.

This brings me to why I tend to hesitate on the ‘about me’ question. The things I just listed are on the surface. If you really want to know me, I would tell you our little life has some big doozies going on!

This summer I found myself strangely calm but, driving my husband to the ER for unknown reasons. You see, he was playing baseball and he became disoriented, staggering around a bit, among other things. His teammates/cousins called 911 and me. We were told he had a stroke. We were also told he had several mild strokes prior to this incident. To make a loooong story short, he went through extensive testing. We found out he had a heart attack at some point as well. Finally, we received some answers. He has auto-immune disease which causes his blood to clot. And, of course the clots were causing the strokes and heart attacks. I have never been so happy receive this news! My husband is doing extremely well considering. He is back to work as normal. God is good! Always!

After being a stay-at-home mom for five years, I’ve joined the workforce again. I struggled with going back to work. I’m a Proverbs 31 woman at heart. I didn’t want to go back to work for the wrong reasons. I didn’t want to do it out of fear, for the money, or go against God’s will for our family. I prayed. I have to tell you the truth, I did desire working again to a certain degree. Seeing the state my husband was in this summer with the added stress of one income, my heart was telling me help the family out. Tears fill my eyes still when I think about that moment.

One morning as I was getting ready for work, I was thinking about the job situation. I really think the enemy was trying to frazzle me a bit. My thoughts: Am doing the right thing? Is this where God wants me to be? What am I doing? Am I doing it for the right reasons? My husband was created as leader of my family. I was created to be a helper to him. God prepares me for new seasons. I trust I am where You want me to be. You are Sovereign. How silly am I for thinking I have control of this. You are in control and I have turned to You over and over. I trust You. This verse popped in my head.

For it is God who works in you to will and to act according to His good purpose. Philippians 2:13

When I was at work the same day, my friend told me she had asked another friend to pray for me about getting this job. I cried. I l-o-v-e the way God speaks to me. I believe He was confirming I am where I am suppose to be. God works in me.

Does this define me? No, but it sure does shape me!

"You, however, are controlled not by the sinful nature but by the Spirit, if the Spirit of God lives in you." Romans 8:9

Embrace the Camera - Dad Time

2010-10-21T21:32:00.002-05:00

I'm finding the Embrace the Camera is a bit more challenging than I originally thought it would be.

You ladies make it look so easy peasy to photograph yourselves. You must have some mad, crazy skills! Maybe I need a camera that can zoom out a bit more. I might have to do an Embrace the Camera - Out takes next week....we'll see! ;)

Wordless Wednesday

2010-10-20T05:32:00.001-05:00

Embrace the Camera

2010-10-07T06:30:00.000-05:00

I decided to join Emily in her 'Embrace The Camera' linky party. Go meet Emily...she's cute and spunky! I love her story and just in case you can't read...she is in her twenties, y'all!

I chose to be part of the Embrace the Camera party, not only to document my time, life, and special moments with my family, but also to embrace myself.

For a long time, I was not comfortable with who I was…

I never felt pretty enough…thin enough…smart enough…

Never felt like I was enough.

If you’ve been reading my blog, you might have noticed there are not a lot of photos of me. It’s hard for me to take pictures of myself.

I’m embracing myself. The self God created me to be. : )

How about you? Have you embraced who you are?

“Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight.” 1 Peter 3:3-4

Sunday Worship

2010-10-03T19:24:00.002-05:00

Late for the Party!

2010-09-28T19:26:00.000-05:00

I want to introduce you to a new website called Marmee's Circle.

The launch for the site was September 13th.

I'm late.

Please forgive me :)

It's beautiful though!

Take your shoes off and look around...

you're in good company!

I will be sharing my story there.

Not now, but soon.

I'll keep you posted.

Enjoy your day! :)

Hope

2010-09-23T20:30:00.000-05:00

A few weeks ago,

I lost my wedding rings.

mmm, hmmm

Lost them at the soccer fields.

I was pretty bummed!

While I know they can be replaced,

I still wanted them back.

They were my wedding rings.

I thought they were lost forever!

We tried looking for them the next day.

And, the few times we went back there.

I had given up...lost my hope.

My husband on the other hand,

did not lose his.

I thought he was crazy talking when he mentioned

something about a metal detector.

Little did I know his thoughts

were going to pay off.

You see,

we found them!

Found them!

after three weeks

I admire this quality about my

husband.

His outlook is a-l-w-a-y-s

Positive.

All of this has reminded me of hope. Hope doesn’t mean everything is lollipops and gumdrops. No. There still may be pain…anguish…it still may hurt. Hope is looking forward, not backward. Hope is knowing things don’t have to stay the way they are. Nope. Things can change. You can change. You can do something. You can make a difference. But, you have to do it! Things will not change if there is no effort.

I lost my hope and there was no effort on my part. I wouldn’t have found my rings. My husband exerted himself and the rings were found.

The good thing about it is you don’t have to do it alone. There’s Someone who can help. He strengthens you to do the tasks at hand.

I can do everything through Him who gives me strength. Philippians 4:13

“But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.” Romans 8:24-25

Sunday

2010-08-29T22:18:00.000-05:00

There is a time for everything,

and a season for every activity under heaven:

a time to be born and a time to die,

a time to plant and a time to heal,

a time to tear down and a time to build,

a time to weep and a time to laugh,

a time to mourn and a time to dance,

a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,

a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

a time to search and a time to give up,

a time to keep and a time to throw away,

a time to tear and a time to mend,

a time to be silent and a time to speak,

a time to love and a time to hate,

a time for war and a time for peace.

He has made everything beautiful in its time.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8, 11

A New Season

2010-08-19T21:38:00.000-05:00

I think I've reached my breaking point today.

This conversation with my daughter sent me over the edge. I asked how her day went and she said okay. I could tell she wasn't thrilled about it. And because she wasn't saying much, I kept asking her questions. She finally said, "Did you know they don't talk about God here?" I said, "Yes, but that's okay if they don't talk about God here." Her response, "Well it's not okay with me."

Since when is this okay with me anyway?

Besides her starting school, there are so many changes going on

my.heart.aches.

Luckily, before bedtime she was able to tell me the best parts of her day
music and quiet time
because they read a story.

"His favor last a lifetime; weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning." Psalms 30:5

Last Day of Summer

2010-08-18T22:12:00.002-05:00

I thought it would be fun if Abby planned our last day of summer together. Of course, she picked her favorite place, the Botanical Gardens. Today was Wet & Wild day for Little Sprouts. A preschool program at the Gardens. They had sprinklers and slip-n-slides.

And, it just wouldn't be complete without ice cream!

The place really is beautiful! They have a great Children's Garden that is so interactive and fun! This is suppose to be a tree with a huge bird's nest that you can walk in and look out. You can also walk inside the tree.

Complete with bird tracks!

They also have a Vegetable Garden with a chicken coop in the back.

We had a great time!

She also chose where we had lunch....

and dessert.

I'm going to miss days like this!!

p.s. blogger is annoying me with their changes!

Struggling?

2010-08-17T08:04:00.001-05:00

As he went along, he saw a man blind from birth. His disciples asked him, "Rabbi, who sinned this man or his parents, that he was born blind?"

"Neither this man nor his parents sinned, " said Jesus, "but this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life."

John 9:1-3

Sunday

2010-08-15T13:24:00.000-05:00

I was reminded of this verse today...

In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will. Romans 8:26-27

The Spirit prays for us. How precious. How lovely. How wonderful. How amazing.

Praise Him!

When he came near the place where the road goes down the Mount of Olives, the whole crowd of disciples began joyfully to praise God in loud voices for all the miracles they had seen. Some of the Pharisees in the crowd said to Jesus, "Teacher, rebuke your disciples!"

"I tell you," he replied, "if they keep quiet, the stones will cry out."

Luke 19:37, 39-40

I will praise You! A stone won't cry out in my place.

Perfection

2010-08-14T13:04:00.001-05:00

Is it hard for you to accept your failures...imperfections...mistakes?

I honestly think this is my greatest downfall...my demise. There are times when I allow my blunders to devour me...get the best of me...tear me down even. This morning I'm left with the question

Why?

I know I'm not perfect. I will make mistakes and, in the heat of the moment, not make the best decisions all the time.

There's something in me that desires to do everything perfectly. Crazy? I'm not sure.

I'm left thinking about my strengths. I think it's like the stick Holley talks about here. Our strengths can go from one extreme to the other. And, I don't think having them on either end is anything to brag about.

Sometimes your strengths become weaknesses because they are out of balance. You either don't use them enough or you overuse them. This usually occurs when you try to use your strengths in your own power, rather than relying on God.

- The Significant Woman by Diann Feldman, Gail L. Porter, and Susan M. Heckmann

Gaining balance through God is the key!

But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10

Then, I'm left with the responses from others concerning my weaknesses. I would love for them to extend mercy and compassion. How about you?

I'll have you know I am NOT superstitious, but I had the worst day yesterday! It started with me burning my arm with the flat iron. Double ouch!! And the ending, oh the ending, not so good!

"How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with You. Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting." Psalms 139:17-18, 23-24

Exciting Surroundings

2010-08-03T01:17:00.000-05:00

Have you ever thought about your surroundings and how much they impact your day?

...like when your house is a mess and you're in a bad mood

or when your house is clean and you're on top of the world!

When my house is messy, it makes me even more lazier and I don't want to clean. The more messy my house is the more I cringe and have to clean every bit in that moment. When my house is clean I'm energized. I do more things with my time. After awhile I need a break from cleaning and so the cycle continues...

I'm losing my train of thought here.

Sometimes my surroundings could be people or situations. When I have a negative person or situation around me, I long to grasp onto something positive...uplifting. Crave it, really!

Oh no, I think I sound a little like Dina.

Photo from TV Guide

Don't ask me how I know that....anyhoo....moving on!

Maybe I'm just a moody person. Okay, I am moody! I love to surround myself with things that make me happy, put me in a good mood, lift me up even. I ran across her blog awhile back and reading her posts really inspired me to surround myself with things that encourage.

Last week I opened my very own shop on Etsy.com. I only have two items listed right now. I had hoped I would have more items to list but, life happens and I work on them when I have the time. I hand dye or paint material to acheive one-of-a-kind fabric for pillows I make.

This weekend I received an email from Anne at Hale Street Studio and she included my Shine On pillow in her treasury. Please click on her treasury to view some undiscovered etsy shops...cute stuff on there! Really exciting for me!

I'm almost finished with a pillow that was inspired by my daughter. She is crazy into peace signs right now. She even named our dog Peace for goodness sakes! And, I'm also working on my Whaterver Is pillow. Keep a look out. You can access my shop by clicking on the images on the top of the sidebar on the right.

At the end of the day, I'm just a mama bear trying to earn a little extra income for the fam. I truly hope the pillows with inspire, encourage, and brighten your day or the day of someone you love!

"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength. These comandments that I give you today are to be upon your hearts. Impress them on your children. Talk about them when you sit at home and when you get up. Tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads. Write them on the doorframes of your houses and your gates." Deuteronomy 6:5-9

Name Change

2010-07-20T13:14:00.000-05:00

Well, as you can see, I changed the name of my blog. There are a few reasons why I decided to do this. Blogworthy Notes just wasn't doing it for me. I needed something else...something that better described

my life, our life.

Something Beautiful emerged.

I thought about how much of a mess I am...

my imperfections.

It made me think about how God turns them into something beautiful.

He makes the unworthy, worthy

the unlovable, lovable.

He makes them beautiful.

I love music! I am always inspired by music and, at times, think God speaks to me through music.

There are several songs which have inspired the name as well...

Beautiful by Bethany Dillon

Something Beautiful by Need to Breathe

A More Beautiful You by Jonny Diaz

to name a few :)

But, the one I'm absolutely loving right now is Beautiful by Francesca Battistelli. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.

And, you know, God is creating beauty in all of us.

We are not perfect, we all make mistakes

that's why we are in need of a Savior, a Perfect God.

"For we are God's masterpiece. It is God himself who has made us what we are and given us new lives from Christ Jesus; and long ages ago He planned that we should spend these lives in helping others." Ephesians 2:10 NLT/LB

Happy Dance/Update

2010-07-14T23:47:00.000-05:00

Okay, so the past few weeks have been a whirlwind to say the least. With all the testing done on Brent, we found out this was not his first stroke. They believe he had several mild strokes or TIAs. Obviously, no one was aware of them. Five years ago, he did have a heart attack and we were aware he had issues with his heart. None of his doctors at the time thought to dig further for answers, but neither did we. The recent testing also showed he has new damage to his heart. So he may have had another heart attack as well.

BTW, have I told you prayer is powerful? As we were searching for a new doctor, I prayed God would guide our steps and lead us to a doctor who could help us. I believe he lead us to the right doctor and I am THANKFUL!!

Last week our doctor told us we may need to go to the Cleveland Clinic because of the damage he saw to his heart and of course with the strokes he has some damage to the brain. And, they still could not figure out what was causing all this. He was going to do one more...you guest it....test before we confirmed the plans to go to Cleveland, OH. The good news is we have identified the cause, anti phospholipid syndrome - for all you technical people out there. The doctor also called it autoimmune disease. Basically this causes blood clots, hence the strokes and heart attacks. :( His immune system is attacking things (phospholipids) that are normally present in his body. More testing to be done to see exactly what they are attacking. Are you following me? We will have to see a hematologist to find out more about everything. Is it crazy to be happy about this? They put him on a blood thinner...complications involved with this...bleeding to much...but, the flip side involved heart surgery.

All in all, we received good news today!

side note: The brain damage really is not severe considering. The damage is on his right frontal lobe which controls...mood...planning...self control...among other things. He is slightly ~~crazy~~ not himself. (he,he) Good news - he has recovered a lot since the stroke and stroke victims can continue to recover up to six months. Everyday he seems to improve. He is back at work as normal. Gotta love it!

"Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you." 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

I AM

2010-07-13T07:48:00.000-05:00

It's funny how God works....well, not really funny but, good!

When Brent was in the hospital, I had the first part of the bible in my purse. And, of course, I started reading it while I was waiting...waiting....waiting...and waiting some more. The first night I was there I came across this verse.

Abraham called that place The Lord Will Provide. And to this day it is
said, "On the mountain of the Lord it will be provided." Genesis 22:14

Comfort slid into my soul and I was at peace that night. Until...a few days later creeping its way in, stress was at my door. I felt a sharp pain in my shoulder and tingles down my arm. Painful and uncomfortable! My mind was racing with all the things going on around me. I stopped and thought, I'll just praise You. I don't know what else to do but praise You. And so, I started:

You are Prince of Peace, Provider, Comforter,

King of Kings, Alpha and Omega, Beginning and the End,

Your ways are perfect and Your Word is flawless,

I can't see but, You can. You are Sovereign, You are God

You are Faithful and I will trust You.

Then I thought to myself, I'm going to focus on this moment...right now what is needed? I looked around and noticed my husband was really uncomfortable, not able to sleep. I prayed God would provide comfort for him and that he was able to have a peaceful rest. Two minutes later a nurse came in and helped him get comfortable and he slept from that moment on through the night. He.Hears.Us. As for me, peace baby! While the nurse was helping my husband, my pain was gone. I've never felt soooo good! Joy is what I felt.

Fast forward to the time we were able to come home. Again, I was reading the bible. I was in Exodus. It's the story where Moses is going to lead the Israelites out of Egypt and into the Promise Land. You know the story. Pharaoh won't let the Israelites go. Moses asks God, what if the Israelites ask who is this God that has sent you?

And God said to Moses, "I AM WHO I AM. This is what you are to say to the Israelites: 'I AM has sent me to you.'" Exodus 3:14

I stopped in my tracks. I AM. That is who God is. I AM. Wow! Think about that for a moment...He IS...He is everywhere and every good thing around me. His presences is here and He is God. Funny thing, we are in John at my church and the Sunday before last we were asked who God is to us, and all I could think about was the verse above. I AM. A week later, the pastor referenced this verse as well. God.You.Are.So.Good!

Have you ever just praised God for who He is no matter where you are in life?

Do you ever do that?

2010-07-11T18:04:00.002-05:00

I had this verse in mind to include on my previous post, but for the life of me could not find it when I needed it! ;) So I wanted to share it with you today.....

Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men. Colossians 3:23

Blink

2010-06-18T08:51:00.010-05:00

I know it's been a while since you've heard from me.......

Well, I'm just going to come out and say it, my husband had a stroke.

And, he is pretty young to be having stroke issues.....more testing to be done.

Overall, he is good and I AM GRATEFUL!

Life is changing over here.

When he was in the hospital, I stayed overnight with him :)

and my father-in-law would graciously come in the morning to sit with him

while I went home to take a shower...and breathe.

The first morning on my way home I heard this song, Blink by Revived.

In a blink everything can change.

So wives, kiss your husbands today. Hug them a little tighter today.

Choose to focus on their best parts, the parts you fell in love with.

Love them for who they are

not for who you want them to be.

And give the rest to God. Allow Him to deal with the frustrating parts of marriage.

Choose to focus on the positives in a relationship.

I guess God thought it was time for me to be intentional about marriage.

And so here I am.

I'm learning to give it my all.

Being a stay-at-home mom and wife is

my lot, my job, my purpose

at the moment.

I enjoy it!

But, I wasn't giving it 100%.

Just being honest.

I would get in the way!!

I didn't want to get up every morning and cook a healthy breakfast.

Cooking is not my thing.

It was hard, so hard.

Not anymore.

New Light. New Focus. New Thinking.

= NEW WAYS.

Friday

2010-05-28T09:13:00.002-05:00

The Lord your God has blessed you in all the work of your hands. He has watched over your journey through this vast desert....the Lord your God has been with you, and you have not lacked anything.

Deuteronomy 2:7

Jesus Roots

2010-05-23T17:56:00.004-05:00

So I was listening to Carrie Underwood on Soundstage the other day,

and she was talking about writing her song Temporary Home.

She said after reading A Purpose Driven Life she wrote this song.

It made me think about my life now as a temporary home...

How I'm living

When I look at things in this perspective, nothing compares.

not a manicure lawn,

not a retirement plan,

not "security" of this world,

not trips to the ice cream shop,

no, nothing would compare if I were to give it all up to love others.

I imagine my days would be stress free....

not having to worry about a mortgage, bills, or debt

no worries about wearing the right clothes,

not worrying about being secure in the future.

I wouldn't want these things any longer.

I would rely on my Father who has promised to be my Provider.

My dilemma of the day would consist of feeding someone in need or splurging on a treat for the family.

Some days would be the first and other days would be the latter. I know God wants us to enjoy this life.

I imagine my life would be filled with joy because of the pouring out of love onto others,

But I imagine God would throw in a "treat" here or there....

Revolution anyone?

Do you hear crickets chirping?

Or is it just me?

I think I need to go back to my roots.

"So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Corinthians 4:18

Happy Mother's Day =)

2010-05-09T08:47:00.008-05:00

I hope your day is filled with a little bit of this,

a whole lot of this,

(It looks like she is biting me...cause she is!)

and if this is a hard day for you maybe some of this will help.

"Honor your father and your mother, as the Lord your God has commanded you, so that you may live long and that it may go well with you in the land the Lord your God is giving you." Deuteronomy 5:16

Live. Today.

2010-04-15T14:41:00.000-05:00

I don't know where I've been lately.

In the clouds maybe?

I just know I haven't been living in the moment.

I've had a lot of things on my mind. Things going on around me. And I've been chewing on bits and pieces of it.

I trust God will make all things right.

I hear God whispering to me....live today. Live. Today.

I ran across this post from Carrien at She Laughs at the Days. The name of her blog is what caught my attention. It's from Proverbs 31, the noble wife. Or, at least I think that's where she came up with the name. That verse has always stood out to me...she can laugh at the days to come.

I'm generally not the kind of girl who laughs at the days to come. I'm getting there. I know I have changed my outlook tremendously but, it still needs some tweaking!

I was also reading this book...

Crazy Love by Francis Chan

and I saw an excerpt from another book he wrote called Forgotten God. It talks about asking the question I just wish I knew God's will for my life? And, how this is a misguided way of thinking and talking. Ouch!

He goes on to say there were very few people in the bible who received their life plan from God in advance. Most were asked to just go.

Quoted from this book:

I think a lot of us need to forget about God's will for my life. God

cares more about our response to His Spirit's leading today, in this

moment, than about what we intend to do next year. In fact, the

decisions we make next year will be profoundly affected by the degree

to which we submit to the Spirit right now, in today's decisions.

It is easy to use the phrase God's will for my life as an excuse

for inaction or even disobedience. It's much less demanding to think

about God's will for your future than it is to ask Him what He wants

you to do in the next ten minutes. It's safer to commit to following

Him someday instead of this day.

I took that as a message from above. Yep, sure did!

So excuse me while I get back to living today....

"Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit." Galatians 5:2

Easter Already?

2010-04-03T10:39:00.005-05:00

March came and went. I didn't even get a chance to say hello! So goodbye March and hello April, with your gorgeous warm days. You make me happy!

Well, I decided to be intentional about Easter this year....unlike Christmas time......ahem. So we dyed eggs and made them into silly people. Nothing says Easter like silly egg people, right? Just joking. The intentional part came when I decided to read a story from Abby's bible with her everyday. We get up and the first thing we do is read her bible. I actually decided to do this with her before Easter so this will definitely be an ongoing thing! But since it's Easter, we have been reading the stories that lead up to Easter day when Jesus rises from the tomb.

Today she asked me how do you get to heaven? How exciting! I was able to share that with her today.

Lord, I'm grateful I can come to you just as I am. flawed. I'm grateful You meet me where I am. I don't have to be perfect. I don't have to know every verse by memory. I can make mistakes and be myself. Thank You for dieing for me, for all of us. You chose us over the pain, the ridicule, the loneliness, the hurt. us! Words can't even describe that kind of Love. Show me how to love like You. Thank You for blessing me with sweet Abby. Lord, may You reign in her heart always! I pray for all who read this. May You open our hearts and reign in them forever! Amen.

This is one of my all time favorite songs. It tells the meaning of Easter. I prefer others who have sung this song, but I like the video here. In Christ Alone.

Happy Easter y'all!

A New Day

2010-03-07T06:19:00.000-06:00

So yesterday I talked about the pull that was once over me. No worries though, I have God on my side.

The Lord is my light and my salvation -

Whom shall I fear?

The Lord is the stronghold of my life -

of whom shall I be afraid?

Psalms 27:1

I will fear no evil for you are

with me.

Psalms 23:4

So Long

2010-03-06T06:36:00.011-06:00

About a year or so ago, I was involved with a group of women who talked about the hard stuff in life. The kind of stuff you want to keep hidden. The kind of stuff you really don't want to talk about, but you are at a point where you don't know what else to do. That kind of stuff.

And, I remember a lady who was spilling her guts and at the end said I'm just so tired. I'm tired. I just feel so tired. Before I knew it, my head was nodding in agreement because I too felt tired. I have to say my issues do not even come close to what she had been through, but somehow I sensed a little of what she was talking about.

In the next few days, Ephesians 6 came to mind, Ephesians 6:10-18 to be exact.

Finally, be strong in the Lord and in His mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against the flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the power of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of the evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions will all kinds of prayers and requests. Ephesians 6:10-18

I once felt as though the enemy had a grip on me. Tight grip. Breaking free was so hard because it was all I knew. he knocked me down. pushed me around. chewed me up and spit me out. I was tired.

Tired of being lied to.
Tired of being deceived.
Tired of doing his dirty work.
Tired of being his puppet.
Tired of giving in to him.
Tired of being used by him.
Tired of being pulled away from God.
Tired.

It was a long, hard, worthwhile road. I learned what it means to put on the armor of God.

So long chains.

I've been set free.

You have been set free from sin and have become slaves to
righteousness. Romans 6:18.

So long insecurity.

I now know the truth about me.

I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Psalms
139:14.

So long doubt.

I now have sanity.

Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - His good, pleasing and perfect will. Romans 12:2

So long warped love.

I now know true love is not conditional.

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. 1 John 4:18.

I've had enough. Goodbye.

"P.S. I shared this post on Heart to Heart with Holley."

Sunday

2010-02-28T13:00:00.002-06:00

God is our refuge and strength,

an ever-present help in trouble.

Therefore, we will not fear,

though the earth give way

and the mountains fall

into the heart of the sea,

though its water roar and foam

and the mountains quake

with their surging.

Psalms 46:1-3

End of 21 Day Challenge

2010-02-18T08:37:00.009-06:00

Well, the My Story Challenge has ended. As Holley said it's the end and the beginning. Please forgive my procrastinating heart! I have linked up the rest of the posts in the series, and I have completed my story statement.

To encourage blooms in family and friends by living out my faith and sharing my life.

I pray that you may be active in sharing your faith, so that you will have a full understanding of every good thing we have in Christ. Philemon 1:6

Q #17 - Share a love story from your life

Q #18 - Almost done, catch up on anything you missed in the series

Q # 19 - What's one thing you will take from this challenge?

Anniversary

2010-02-17T09:59:00.002-06:00

February 12th was our anniversary. Yep, we've been married for 6 years. So what did we do to celebrate, you ask?

Well, we decided to go to The Lodge at Mt. Magazine.

Bea-u-ti-ful

and breathtaking! Those are clouds by the way.

It was soooo nice to get away, just the two of us! The only downside was that it's winter time. We couldn't enjoy all Mt. Magazine has to offer like trails,hang gliding, rock climbing. I'm not sure if I would even attempt hang gliding or rock climbing, but it's a fun thought.

What else could I do but take crazy pictures of myself without hubby knowing. Then, cause my hubby to break out into hysterics when he is flipping through the pictures at dinner because he wasn't expecting it.

On our way home, we decided to stop and eat at Rivertowne BBQ. The BEST BBQ I have tasted by far! So good. Really good. I wish I had some right now, yum!

Note to self: I need to get hubby a new hat.

Enjoy life with your wife, whom you love, all the days... Ecclesiastes 9:9

My Story - Where am I?

2010-02-11T10:35:00.037-06:00

I have been linking up with Heart to Heart with Holley in her Friday Round Up. Today I decided to focus on one question. I have links to all of this weeks questions at the bottom of this post so you can check those out & continue on with your story.

Now, I'm just thinking out loud with some random pictures.

All of Holley's post have got me thinking about where I'm at in my story. Honestly, maybe it all started when I read this post by Tsh a while back. I'm climbing my mountain. I look over and notice I'm climbing the wrong mountain. This is where I'm at, the wrong mountain.

Do you remember I tend to take the Princess approach? I have a pen and I'm not afraid to use it! The problem with this approach is I'm not waiting or maybe not paying attention to what God is saying to me. I'm eager to write my story, but I think I'm forgetting that He is the Author of my story.

Been there?

I know there is purpose here on the erroneous mountain, well...really it's just a hill. There are a lot of things I have learned. I have grown and I see more clearly where He wants me to be.

I believe sometimes we have to experience certain situations to be able to gain wisdom, understanding, and even a new point of view.

Defeated? Nope. Just expanding my view!

Rough draft of my life story statement = To encourage blooms in family and friends by sharing my faith and growth experiences. (still working on it)

Q#12 - What are some of your skills?

Q#13 - What's your heart waiting on right now?

Q#14 - One sentence rough draft...

Q#15 - Am I the only one who struggles with contentment? What helps?

Q#16 - What are your feelings saying? What's true?

My Story - Round Up

2010-02-05T11:34:00.029-06:00

I'm joining Holley at Heart to Heart with Holley on her 21 Day Challenge in her My Story Series. To view Holley's posts for each question, please click on the questions. To start at the beginning of my story click here.

Q # 5 - What's a meaningful memory in your story?

Family- cousins

Sight - My cousins' humble, cozy house surround with family.

Sound - My uncle playing his guitar and making up silly songs. All of the children singing hymns while he strummed the guitar. Laughter.

Touch - Seated on the soft couch, arm and arm with my sister and cousins. Often the boys would wrestle with us, leg wrestle that is. Leg wrestling tournaments were a must!

Taste - Carrot cake. I remember making carrot cake at their house.

Smell - There was always something cooking in the kitchen.

Q # 6 - How do you "coast"?

God designed us to have times of "coasting." He gave us different gears on purpose. In particular, He gave us the gift of a Sabbath. That's the best example of "coasting." Holley Gerth

I coast by playing with my daughter and not worrying what needs to get done. I also enjoy making things, being creative.

Q # 7 - What's one "direction" you'd like to go in?

I would like to have a stronger marriage, not that our marriage is bad! I believe it could be better and stronger.

Q # 8 - What has helped bring healing to your history?

Things that have helped bring healing to my life are:

A ministry called Celebrate Recovery - You can read my post on it here. I discovered what the Serenity Prayer was all about and found my freedom back.

Boundaries by Dr. Henry Cloud - You can read my post on it here. The first time I read this book it opened my eyes to a new world. I didn't know I needed boundaries and found some peace through this book.

Writing and Hiding From Love by Dr. John Townsend - I also discovered writing is a release for me. I tend to keep things bottled up. I've learned they are eventually going to come out and/or destroy me. I need to have them come out in a healthy way. Writing is the way for me.

Q # 9 - What is God doing in YOUR story right now?

(Do you tend to compare your story instead of share it? Read Holley's post.)

In MY story, God is making me into a better person. I realized personal growth is a passion of mine. I have the desire to change and want to help others grow as well. I believe God has the desire for all of us to grow and mature into fruitful people, but we are crucial in the process of it. Because God gives us the gift of freewill, we have to take the first step. We have to choose God. We have to turned to Him for help and then, He takes over.

Q # 10 - What's your heart saying in response?

Humility means bowing our hearts to God. Or in other words, submitting to His will. And what is His will? That we agree with what He says and live it out...including what He says about us. He says we're loved, accepted, and
wonderfully made in a way that's just right for His purposes to be fulfilled in our lives. Holley Gerth

My heart is saying, yes Lord! Forgive me for not accepting who You created me to be. I am wonderfully made, not in a proud way, but in a purposeful way. I was made for You. I was created to love others. Thank You, for teaching me what true love, Your love, is about. Unconditional Love is loving others and not expecting anything in return. It's loving when the other person does not deserve it. My heart is bowed before You. Amen.

Q # 11 - What are some of your strengths?

Strength: a personal characteristic that can be used on behalf of God
in service to others. Holley Gerth

Honest

Frugal

Capable

Caring

Creative

Loving

Forgiving

Responsible

Sensitive

Thoughtful

Reflective

Protective

Ranch Dreaming

2010-02-01T06:58:00.000-06:00

After watching Julie & Julia, I wanted to go out, get a Julia Child cookbook, and cook every recipe in the book. Okay, maybe not every recipe, but a few at least. Then, I remembered the cookbook was about french cooking and even though my cooking skills have improved, I still have my Lucy moments in the kitchen. So, I scratched that idea.

Then, all over bloggy land I've been hearing about this cookbook from the The Pioneer Woman. And, I tell you, I must have been living under a rock because I had no idea who The Pioneer Woman was! It just so happens that I have an account with Homestyle Books and noticed I had earned points on my account. Curious, I checked to see what my points where worth. I could purchase the The Pioneer Woman Cooks for $5 y'all & free shipping! Of course, for only $5 I wanted to see what all the buzz was about.

I am so happy I got this cookbook. The first cookbook I have read from beginning to end. The pictures alone are amazing! It makes me want to own a ranch and wrangle up some cowboys to cook for them. Now, she does give Paula Dean a run for her money, or should I say a run for her 'butter.' I have a feeling the butter doesn't matter when you work (really work, with your hands & all) on a ranch. The butter just melts away. I'm guessing.

Please tell me I'm not the only one who doesn't know to bake potatoes in the oven before cooking them with sausage & egg for breakfast burritos. They were yummy!

All of this has made me dream about living on a ranch, where I would raise and grow my own food. What happened to those good old days?

Friday Round Up

2010-01-29T10:17:00.018-06:00

So, I decided to do Holley's challenge in her Rest of My Story Series. I've shared a lot with you so far and my theory is why stop now. I've decided to answer all the questions during the week on Fridays & link up with her Friday Round Up. To read Holley's post on the questions, click on the questions below.

Q # 1 - Out of the 3, which approach do you mostly take & how can you do things differently the next 3 weeks?

The Princess - She wants her story to be perfect and strives to make it so. She's got a pen and she's not afraid to use it!

The Procrastinator - She's waiting for "happily ever after" to come. You can often hear her saying, "When X happens then I'll...."

The Planner - She prefers lists to stilly stories. If it can't be planned and checked off, why bother including it in the plot?

(Taken from Holley's Post)

Well at the moment, I tend to take the Princess approach. (Don't judge me.) I think my expectations get in the way. They trip me up! I expect or imagine things to turn out one way and when they don't I feel I have failed or did it wrong. What I can do to change this.....hmmm....pray and trust God. He is in control.

My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weakness, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9

Q # 2 - Who shares your life right now? Especially, who is a "heart relationship" for you?

My heart relationships right now are: husband, mom, and sister. It's super hard for me to open up to others. I'm working on it little by little...

Q # 3 - What's one little thing that helps you give God the red pen and make peace with who you are?

I love the following from Holley's red pen post. Good post to read! Click on the question above.

Stephen Covey once said, "When you pick up a stick, you get both ends." In our stories, a "stick" might look like...

Anxiety.....................................Sensitivity..................................Compassion
Sensitivity in itself is a neutral personality trait. On our own it can lead us toward worry (negative). With Jesus it can lead us toward compassion (positive).

Accepting things as they are...not stressing over them. I have to let go of my expectations. And, by focusing on the positive and what needs to turn around...not accepting the bad, the ugly, and the negative...knowing it doesn't have to stay this way. I'm not sure if that makes sense!

Q # 4 - What's a S.T.E.P in your story?

Shifting the focus off of myself and onto God. Easy peasy, right? I have a feeling it's not easy or I would be doing it right now!

The Rest of MY Story - Challenge

2010-01-25T06:18:00.006-06:00

Since I talked about my God-sized dreams, you might be saying to yourself

Kristina, that's great and all, but how do I start to live intentionally?

Where do I begin?

Well, Holley over at Heart to Heart with Holley has been doing a series called The Rest of Your Story. In the series, she talks about our "happily ever after" scenes. She asks us to close our eyes and imagine what our "happily ever after" looks like. Can you see your happily ever after?

How do we get there? How do we live out our lives so that we can have the "happily ever after" scene?

That's where her 21 day challenge comes into play. In Holley's words, "at the end of the 21 days we'll have a rough draft of the rest of our stories including goals, steps to take, and even a life story statement (sort of like a mission statement but cooler)."

I have linked her posts in the series at the bottom. They are short reads and really get your juices flowing for the....well, I'm just going to call it the Happily Ever After Challenge.

Part 1 - The Rest of Your Story
Part 2 - Picking Up Our Pens (love this one)
Part 3 - Familiar Words
Part 4 - A New Perspective
Part 5 - What's Real
Part 6 - Where Are You Now
Part 7 - It's a Showdown of the Soul, Y'all
Part 8 - And now the Fun Begins
Part 9 - Deeper into Your Dreams
Part 10 - How Are You Really?
Part 11 - The Challenge

Keeping it Real

2010-01-22T13:23:00.008-06:00

They say when you have gray hair,

it stands for wisdom.

I must have grown very wise this past year

because, boy, do I have some gray hair.

Everywhere!

Why do we try to cover it up?

Well, all I know is I'm in my 30's and it makes me feel old.

I want to feel young, be young.

Gray hair is a crown of splendor; it is attained by a righteous life.
Proverbs 16:31

splendor /'splen-der/ n 1: Brilliance

2: pomp, magnificence

I'm going to wear my gray hair proud...

until I get it dyed,

again.

Creative Winter

2010-01-16T08:18:00.006-06:00

Did you know we all have a creative bone in us? We are created in God's likeness and He is the creator of all. We may not all be Picasso or win an award for our poetry, but we can all create something. And, it doesn't stop with art and writing. We can be creative in cooking, parenting, work, everywhere. I don't write poetry. Honestly, I'm not very good at it, but I decided to give writing a haiku a try. So here it goes. I couldn't decided between the two. I think I like the second one better.

cold breath, branches break

beauty found in everything

only You renew

bending branches break

warm cup, cozy pj night

beauty in the sky

To read other creative poetry click here.

The Nester

2010-01-12T18:24:00.005-06:00

Are you familiar with The Nester? She finds beauty in the imperfections of decorating. Her motto: It doesn't have to be perfect to be beautiful. Love that!

She is hosting a giveaway from Dayspring and Danielson Design Studio. You can win a customized sign just for you.

You can use your family name, favorite quotes, or anything you can imagine. Do you or your hubby ever forget your anniversary? Why not have something made to remember the date.

Click here to learn more about the giveaway.

What I'm reading...

2010-01-12T15:01:00.006-06:00

Boundaries: When to Say Yes, How to Say No to Take Control of Your Life.

by Henry Cloud & John Townsend

I've read this book before, but I'm brushing up on it again for a bible study I'm doing for the spring semester. It really is perfect timing since relationships was the first goal on my list. Reading Chapter 5 alone could drastically change your relationships. Chapter 5 talks about the Ten Laws of Boundaries.

Law #1: The Law of Sowing and Reaping - Ahh, natural consequences. Are you an enabler? A codependent person?

Law #2: The Law of Responsibility - A quote from the book, "We are to love one another, not be one another." We are responsible for ourselves.

Law #3: The Law of Power - Clear definitions of what you do have power over.

Law #4: The Law of Respect - We need to respect the boundaries of others.

Law #5: The Law of Motivation - Are you motivated by fear or guilt? Is your giving leading to cheer?

Law #6: The Law of Evaluation - The difference between hurting someone and harming them.

Law # 7: The Law of Proactivity - We have to react to find our own boundaries, but then move on from there.

Law #8: The Law of Envy - Being content with who I am and taking the focus off others.

Law #9: The Law of Activity - A quote from the book, "Passivity never pays off. God will match our effort, but He will never do our work for us. That would be an invasion of our boundaries."

Law #10: The Law of Exposure - Learning where someone else ends and you begin.

The best $10 I ever spent!

By the way, my daughter asked me what book I was reading and I told her the name. She said, I already know how to say no. But, what does it say about saying yes? I gave her a simple answer, When it's from your heart say yes.

It's a lifestyle.

2010-01-07T11:13:00.018-06:00

I meant to post right after my last post about God-sized dreams, however, my daughter was sick :(

So, here I am a few days later.

The reason I don't like to make resolutions at the beginning of a year is because they are hard to keep. They remind me of diets. I don't know about you, but whenever I've been on a diet I was always anticipating the end. I couldn't wait until the diet was over so I could go back to the way I was eating. Isn't that funny? The diet, of course, didn't work because my habits didn't change. Sure, it worked for awhile but it didn't last long! I've learned it ultimately is my habits that need to change in order for me to lose weight, stay in shape, and to be healthy. This doesn't just apply to eating, but in other areas of my life as well.

When I thought about God-sized dreams, I thought it has to be a lifestyle change. And, I tell you fear started to creep into my mind, and my heart started to beat a little faster. I almost didn't write the post because I feared I couldn't accomplish the things I was talking about. Then, I remembered they were God-sized dreams and "with God all things are possible" Matthew 19:26. (Sigh.) What a relief!

Then, I started to think about my faith. Is my faith strong enough to believe all things are possible with God?

I think my verse of the year will be Hebrews 12:1:

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.

In Hebrews 11, it gives accounts of several people who had faith in God even when they did not understand what was going on or what was going to be in the future. All they had was trust in God and faith in Him working in their lives. I encourage you to read Hebrews 11 to see all of the examples of people who had faith in God and to see the outcome of their faith in Him. His promises were kept. God is faithful. So the first part of the above sentence, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, should help me strengthen my faith in God. The things I read in the bible are meant for me to have a strong faith in God. I, in turn, should throw off everything that is hindering me.

insecurities.

being passive.

relying on myself.

allowing the world to influence me.

Lifestyle change. It starts with my mind. I have resolved to change my hindering habits. Again, I can't do it alone. I know I need God to kick the hindering habits.

"Therefore, prepare your minds for action; be self-controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed. As obedient children, do not conform to the evil desires you had when you lived in ignorance. But just as He who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do." 1 Peter 1:13-14

God-sized Dream for 2010

2010-01-01T08:57:00.009-06:00

I'm not one for New Year's resolutions. I haven't made any in years past, and probably will not in years to come. However, I've been (in)couraged to dream in 2010, God-sized dreams.

When I think about God-sized dreams, I think nothing is impossible with God. This is something we have all heard before, and I know is true. But, do I believe it's true for me? Is my faith strong enough? I know for God it's a piece of cake, but I tend to get in the way of Him working in my life.

Hebrews 12:1 comes to mind,

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.

Yes, let me throw off everything that hinders! I hold myself back, not God, me.

My goals for 2010 are to live intentionally in every aspect of my life and to throw off all that is hindering me. God has given me the gift of freedom and the power to choose.

For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and, self-discipline. 2 Timothy 1:7

I have been given a spirit of power, not an arrogant kind of power or a power to move mountains or to walk on water, but the power to choose. I choose God. I choose to love. I choose to have self-discipline. I know I can not do it alone. I need God's help. I need Him in my life to accomplish these things.

For it is God who works in you to will and to act according to His good purpose.
Philippians 2:13

I plan to turn to God for guidance in prayer and reading the bible to help me accomplish these goals. And, I give myself permission to fail and to make a mistake. Let's be real. I'm not perfect and I will not always live every moment in 2010 intentionally. My one rule is to allow myself to fail and to keep going! God-sized dreams.

As I write this, I'm thinking about more specific goals: relationships, parenting, marriage, loving others, growing my faith, and the list could go on. It may seem overwhelming to some, however, this is not only my goal in 2010, but for years to come.

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Advent

2009-12-28T07:12:00.021-06:00

Have you ever felt like the Christmas season was closing in on you?

A little claustrophobic-ish?

I did this year.

Maybe part of it was because Christmas came so fast this year. I didn't have time to think. Christmas was just in my face! And, I love this time of year. I mean L-O-V-E, love it! The music, lights, projects, the feeling of Christmas, I love it!

Normally, I do feel a little stress during this season with all the shopping and gift giving. But, I overall enjoy it. This year I didn't feel stressed at all, not one bit! I was exhausted, yes, but not stressed. From the moment I woke up till the time I went to sleep, I was cooking, baking, shopping, and crafting. As soon as I laid my head down on the pillow, I was out.

I caught myself day dreaming about taking down the tree and decorations before Christmas day. I felt like I couldn't breathe with all the Christmas stuff around my house. I don't think it was because I have too much decorations. I just felt overall it was too much. Are you following me?

And the funny thing is my tree is still up. Yep, I haven't taken anything down yet! The last week or so before Christmas I was longing for it to be here already, but instead it has extended its stay.

Because of the snow storm, family couldn't get here until the day after Christmas. Now it is over and it has left me with an unsatisfied feeling.

When my husband brought me all the Christmas boxes down from the attic, I noticed the advent wreath was not there. I forgot to ask him about it for a few days. Then, I remembered and we searched high and low for it. My husband even went up into the attic twice to look for it. We couldn't find it and have no idea what happened to it!

Sadly, we didn't do advent this year. As I write that sentence, it sounds silly. Why didn't we just do the reading?

I thought I wouldn't lose the meaning of Christmas this year. I asked my daughter over and over what Christmas was about with her response every time, "Jesus' birthday."

I think those things just don't bring me as much joy as they use to. I still enjoy them don't get me wrong, but I need more. They are not satisfying. I think I will make another wreath soon and do the advent reading. My husband will think I'm crazy, but I AM. Better late than never!

Merry Christmas!

2009-12-25T05:23:00.003-06:00

a King in a manger

Light of the world

Prince of Peace

Wonderful Counselor

Mighty God